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Not All Who Wander Are Lost

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All that is gold does not glitter;
all that is long does not last;
All that is old does not wither;
not all that is over is past.
Not all that have fallen are vanquished;
a king may yet be without crown,
A blade that was broken be brandished;
and towers that were strong may fall down.

-Christopher Tolkien

Some people stay in one place their entire lives.

Whether it’s a city or a job, they’re content.  They vividly envision their future, feel satisfied with what’s in front of them, and are happy with where they’re at.  They don’t question their current reality.  These people are often stable, secure, and good citizens of the world.

I was never one of those people.

As a young girl, I created characters and wrote stories to escape my reality.  I dreamed of writing, living in California or New York, and creating a new identity for myself.  I wasn’t sure who I was, but I was certain I would find it outside of myself.

Over the years, I began feeling more comfortable with the authentic person I was; the dreamer, the creator, the adventurer.  However, not everyone understood or accepted that.  The “square peg in a round hole” feeling I had left me confused and empty- I was attempting to fit into a society that didn’t seem to be built for me.  I had a difficult time staying at office jobs, doing what other people told me to do, and having my creativity questioned.

Then, I learned an important lesson: that my individuality is what makes me who I am.

At almost 35 years old, I’ve done everything I used to think I wanted- and I don’t regret any of it.  I have lived in more states and glistening big cities than I can count on one hand, but I don’t have to pretend I am someone I’m not anymore.

Creators are meant to create- and my experiences will become stories I share with others.

Not all who wander are lost, whether it’s thousands of miles away or up the Peninsula on a Sunday afternoon.

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11/11 Vibes- Living a Life You Love

11/11 is one of my favorite days on the calendar- other than my birthday, 12/22, of course.

11/11 not only adds up to my beloved 22, but it’s known as one of the most spiritual days of the year.  Representing intuition and enlightenment, 11/11 is the ideal day to redirect your thoughts- remember, they are powerful!

Your thoughts become reality.

Vibrations are high and it’s the perfect time to visualize yours dreams and desires.  Remember, you have the ability to manifest the life you want to live- whether it’s pursuing that book you’re writing or relationship you wish to have.

For me, I am doing the work to live a creative life- not just in my hobbies, but in my career.  I set up a home office, organized my journals, and faced my desk toward the trees.  As my home, spirit, and mind become ready for what is next, the Universe’s plan for me will effortlessly fall into place.

I’ve been writing on this blog for almost three years, and have written about 11/11 before.  However, I unknowingly was still trying to fit in a box that wasn’t meant for me.  I tried teaching, working at a law firm, and being an executive assistant at a nonprofit.  I’ve had endless attempts to make my life work doing things that weren’t in my heart, but upon my move home to Michigan, I refused to live out a story that wasn’t meant for me.

I have to follow my heart.

I found a job within style, have been writing every day, and am making headway with my book.  I’ve connected with amazing people and actually feel I am living with purpose, not just for a paycheck.

Being authentic to who you are makes all the difference in the world- if you’re acting differently than what your soul tells you, you’re just confusing the Universe.

Listen to your intuition- it won’t steer you in the wrong direction.

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Where I See Myself

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“I want to write. I want to write stories that make people feel less alone than I did. I want to make people laugh about the things in life that are painful. That’s what I want to do.” –Hannah, Girls

I am finally finishing Girls, one of my favorite TV shows.  Over the past couple of years I’ve been absorbed in my own life, without HBO (until now) or television in general.  However, it’s a good thing I am finishing the series when I am, because the synchronicities between Hannah Horvath and myself are out of control.

Not only is she an only child from Michigan like me, she moved to New York City with the dream of becoming a writer.  She got herself into ridiculous situations, met a plethora of crazy characters, and even was published in the Modern Love section of the New York Times- yet another goal of mine.

When asked where she wanted to be in three to five years by author Chuck Palmer (who stated how much he loves Traverse City, my hometown), she told him she wanted to write.

The vulnerability of writing is powerful, healing, and helpful to others- and like Hannah, I want to write to make people not feel so alone, too.

I’ve never been good at “jobs;” as a creative person, I’ve struggled in office environments.  I’ve had creative differences with people I have worked for.  I have had a vision, a dream, and a wild streak- something that employers generally don’t value or understand.

Freelance writing is something I am looking to do full-time, yet working on my book is my top priority right now.  In addition to writing two Modern Love stories, I have an outline for a fictional, yet semi-autobiographical book based on my life in New York City and beyond.

We will see where my path leads, but I know who I am, and I know what I am good at.  I know my dreams and goals, and in this chapter, I won’t let sitting at someone else’s desk get in my way.

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There’s No Such Thing As “Bored;” Creating Your Own Life

“Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination.”

~Oscar Wilde

As a writer and artist, I’m personally offended by the term “boredom.”

“You’re not bored,” I always think when someone tells me this. “You just aren’t willing to use your imagination.”

As Berry Draper once said to her restless children, “only boring people are bored.” Although this is a little harsh, I agree with Mad Men’s leading lady.

Being “bored” is being blind to all the opportunities around us.

On Saturday, I spent the day walking around Boston. A few people asked if I was going to go visit my friend in Arlington as I did a couple weeks before. “No,” I replied. “I’m going to the Back Bay to have a ‘Kristin day.'”

“Doing what?” they wondered, perplexed.

I just looked at them. “Taking pictures, writing, window shopping. Meditation, relaxing.”

It’s shocking how people think there needs to be a grand reason. It’s also surprising to me how few people enjoy being alone. There’s always something to do, see, think about, or create. Whether it’s admiring the window displays on Newbury Street or taking a walk down Commonwealth Avenue, experiencing the world outside and the beauty all around is much more rewarding than sitting in front of a television.

I’d prefer to write my own story instead of watching someone else’s fictional version on TV.

If you ever find yourself into the “boredom trap,” just think- what haven’t I seen? Where haven’t I been? What haven’t I read? What can I write?

When you create your own days instead of waiting for life to happen, you’ll be amazed at what you find.

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Grounded and Grateful

I had never truly thought about being “grounded” until I began learning about the seven chakras last fall. Yes, the concept has come up throughout my life, but I failed to embody its meaning until recently.

I’ll admit, I’m a woman with her head in the clouds- whimsy and wild. My dreams are grandiose, my mind is fixated in the future, and I’m always looking for a deeper meaning to what is right in front of me. However, through meditation and nature, I began my own grounding practice without even knowing it.

There’s nothing like sitting in the grass, watching the birds fly by, smelling the crisp fall air, or sitting still to observe.

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After a lack of creativity, I decided to balance my chakras, meditate, and free write yesterday. I came up with seven poems- each corresponding to a chakra- to reframe my thinking and open my consciousness.

The first is “Muladhara,” or “Rooted,” for the Root Chakra. Red Jasper supports this chakra with its grounding, safety, inner strength, and balancing properties.

I hope you enjoy my poem and find your own inner peace, grounding, and gratitude this weekend. 🙏🏻