The other day I was chatting with someone about the joy in living simply (and how I wasn’t always this way), but expressed my concern about not establishing “roots” in any one place over the past decade.
Although I’ve experienced many different things and lived in some of the most exciting cities in the country- San Francisco, Austin, New York, Chicago and Boston, from time to time I wonder what my life would look like today if I had committed to one place and “established” myself; whatever that means.
Sometimes I think this means working at the same job for several years; other times I think it means buying a house or starting a family. What exactly have I been doing the past ten years, anyway? My mind started to wander.
The response I received made me feel 100% better:
“You don’t need roots. They’re an identity. Attachments are a false sense of self we are addicted to.”
How accurate. I realized the wealth of life lessons that I have experienced over the years and felt extremely grateful. I also reached an important conclusion: wherever you go, there you are.
I’d much rather have a strong sense of self than a bunch of stuff. I may not have my own house, but I can take myself anywhere and still be content. I may only have a few pieces of luggage, but I have peace of mind.
I also have been thinking back to where I was a year ago today, and funny enough, it was a rainy, windy day in New York City- just like today in Boston. At this time last year, I was struggling with finding my focus within my career (or lack thereof), holding on to a negative relationship that wasn’t going anywhere, living with unmanageable anxiety and wondering where my next paycheck would come from. It was no way to live. Looking back, I only remember the happy memories though- like the beautiful blossoms on Reade Street, the amazing friendships I made and the inspiration all around me that influenced me to start writing and stop feeling sorry for myself.
You find yourself within yourself- not where you set your “roots.”
While I still have no idea what my life will look like next year, today I feel a little more confident in knowing that there’s a plan for me, as long as I stay mindful, positive and am open to possibilities.
Today, I just choose to be happy.