Living In the Flow- This Weekend’s Lesson, As Told By A Rock


I’ve had a blast writing in the sun over the weekend, biking throughout town, and leaving little messages in secret spots.

Earlier in the week I was feeling manic- I was finding myself roaming from one room to another, starting one project but never finishing another. I was bouncing off other people’s energy, encouragement, and feedback, and forgetting to focus on what I was doing. Even for someone who writes about living in the moment, I can lose my sense of grounding, too!

I spent the weekend on my bike, exploring the city, and snapping shots of the beauty around me. Like magic, my sense of balance was restored and I felt like I had my wings of flow once again.

At last.

I sat by the Boardman River, aligning my rocks and accessories while I gazed into the water. As the river flowed, I felt my body loosen and my spirit light up. At last, the mania had begun to pass.

I can also thank my meditation teacher, Nilcee, a wonderful soul who I met back in my NYC days. She leads a Tuesday night meditation in Astoria, but has moved over to Zoom during the pandemic. Although we met four years ago, I’ve felt her energy with me ever since- and unlike other teachers in the past, she assures me she is a guide; I already have all the power within. I may have a difficult time listening to others who tell me what to do (my sacral tells me everything I need to know), but I feel extremely empowered when I’m guided along my path- or river, if you will.

She reminds me of my natural flow and rhythm, and to tune out distractions with tuning into myself. On Friday night, I even called in to a virtual Happy Hour to chat with the Astoria friends along the Grand Traverse Bay!

Near and far, it’s wonderful to feel connection, and it’s even easier to do so when you tune into yourself and live in the flow.

I’ll be leaving these around town throughout the next week, so keep your eye out for a few little golden words in Traverse City (and soon Boston + NYC!).


You Don’t Have to Contribute to the Negative Conversations

In our lifetime, we have never seen an event such as the Coronavirus pandemic.

In my 35 years on this planet, never have I walked down city streets in the middle of a Tuesday afternoon to find everything closed with barely a person on sight. As I safely left my home to lay rocks outside of businesses and in hidden spots downtown, I stopped to think about how others are feeling.

With a smile on my face, feeling full of purpose, I paused to considered those who haven’t quite seen the light at the end of the tunnel.

My heart goes out to the restaurant owners, retailers, and businesses who have halted their daily routine to flatten the curve. That’s why I am focusing my energy on doing what I can to help- even if it’s small.

You are stronger than you realize.


I thought about what we can control in terms of our media consumption and the conversations we have with family or friends (check out a post I wrote a couple of years ago about how you’re lowering your energetic vibration without even realizing it).

What are we focusing on? Fear? Financial insecurity? Health concerns?

Many of us feel compelled to join the negative conversations and will embrace some of their fear- much of which isn’t your own.

That’s why we need to focus on the helpers, not the problem.

I read an amazing article by author Steve Pavlina, who shared his views on the importance of lightworkers in today’s society:

“The lightworker’s duty is to serve the health of the body. Lightworkers strive for a healthy, sane humanity. They’re like white blood cells fighting diseases such as cruelty, apathy, depression, disempowerment, dishonesty, and cowardice. Such diseases damage the health of the body. The #1 disease lightworkers battle is fear. Wherever there is fear in the body of humanity, lightworkers are driven to respond.”


Yesterday I chatted with a few friends who are visibly concerned about their health and safety. I am, too. However, my focus isn’t on the news and the negativity. It’s about focusing on what I can do in the now.

We all have a choice of what messages we want to send- do we want to spread the fear, or send light?

Do you want to look at the problem or the solution?

Even though we have to stay home, there is so much we can do both online and within our own homes to raise the overall vibration- and choosing what conversations you partake in is a part of this.

I am doing my best to be mindful of the energy I am putting out- and instead of fear, I have faith.

Connecting With Something Bigger Than You

Everyone has their own way of connecting with something bigger than themselves.

For some, it means religion, while for others, it’s through connecting with nature, animals, or music.  From believing in the natural flow of the universe to seeing a higher power work through other people, there is no doubt in my mind that I am being guided by something bigger than me.

There have been times I’ve missed a train, noticed a street sign, or gotten a phone call that made me realize there was something out there working in my favor.

If I had gotten on the first train, I wouldn’t have bumped into an old friend on the second one.

Had I not spotted the street sign, I wouldn’t have thought of a potential writing topic.

Just as I was thinking of someone, they called.

My higher power shows me signs in my everyday life.

Not only do I believe in connecting with source energy- keeping my thoughts positive and my vibration high– but I also believe in being guided by angels.  Just the other day, after thinking about my Grandma Arlene, I found a dime and my lost Angelite stone under my bed while looking for a pair of shoes.

There are no coincidences in my life.

You never know why things happen the way they do, but you can take some comfort in knowing that they always find a way to work.

Just be open and aware- you may be surprised at what you find.

Here is an interesting video about feeling disconnected from the physical world when you experience a spiritual awakening.

Believe: The Gateway to Self

German philosopher Johann Wolfgang von Goethe said, “Magic is believing in yourself. If you can do that, you can make anything happen.”

On this 12/12, I have been thinking about everyday magic and living in infinite possibilities.

Keeping my eye out for synchronicities and signs, I have made a conscious effort to stay connected, grateful, and in my own truth.

12/12 is a magical gateway to transformation, helping to guide you closer to your soul purpose and passions. This gateway assists in feeling confident, empowered, and loved; the old will begin to slip away and make room for a newness that will be better aligned with your heart.

You can find magic each and every day- you just need to be open to what life brings you. As we stop listening to what others on the outside say and begin to listen to what’s inside, a new peace is found and unexpected doors will open.

All you need is to believe in yourself- then others will, too.

There’s No Such Thing As “Bored;” Creating Your Own Life

“Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination.”

~Oscar Wilde

As a writer and artist, I’m personally offended by the term “boredom.”

“You’re not bored,” I always think when someone tells me this. “You just aren’t willing to use your imagination.”

As Berry Draper once said to her restless children, “only boring people are bored.” Although this is a little harsh, I agree with Mad Men’s leading lady.

Being “bored” is being blind to all the opportunities around us.

On Saturday, I spent the day walking around Boston. A few people asked if I was going to go visit my friend in Arlington as I did a couple weeks before. “No,” I replied. “I’m going to the Back Bay to have a ‘Kristin day.'”

“Doing what?” they wondered, perplexed.

I just looked at them. “Taking pictures, writing, window shopping. Meditation, relaxing.”

It’s shocking how people think there needs to be a grand reason. It’s also surprising to me how few people enjoy being alone. There’s always something to do, see, think about, or create. Whether it’s admiring the window displays on Newbury Street or taking a walk down Commonwealth Avenue, experiencing the world outside and the beauty all around is much more rewarding than sitting in front of a television.

I’d prefer to write my own story instead of watching someone else’s fictional version on TV.

If you ever find yourself into the “boredom trap,” just think- what haven’t I seen? Where haven’t I been? What haven’t I read? What can I write?

When you create your own days instead of waiting for life to happen, you’ll be amazed at what you find.

Focus on What You DO Want

Over the past couple of years I have carefully thought about my priorities, goals, and values. While I’ve cleared away the things that no longer serve me, I’ve made one major mistake without even realizing it:

I’ve thought too much about the things I don’t want.

Instead of simply visualizing the things I do want, I’ve equally focused on what I don’t want my life to look like.

Examples:

  • I don’t want a conventional life
  • I’m not looking for a relationship
  • I don’t want to have children
  • I don’t want to work a “business job”
  • I don’t want my life to revolve around money

Although these things are good for self awareness, I have focused on how I don’t want my life to look instead of how I do.

It’s important to be honest with ourselves- but once we do, we can let those thoughts go.

Instead, I can think:

  • I want to live a life of inner freedom
  • I am open to a relationship when the time is right
  • I will be happy living a life independently while empowering and inspiring others
  • I will focus on my creative endeavors
  • I am grateful for all that I have

Although these messages are essentially the same, it’s opening my life to abundance, not the “don’t wants.” The Universe gets confused when we say “don’t.” Instead, it’s picking up our keywords. The universe is hearing “corporate,” “relationship,” and “conventional,” not the “don’t” part- just like Google would if we were to do an online search.

As you think, speak, and write, remember this little lesson. You’ll be surprised how many times a day you’re sending mixed signals that are blocking what you do want- so be mindful of those thoughts.

I promise, you will see a difference. 💞

Full Circle- New Moon and NYC

My four year anniversary of moving to New York City is coming up on June 18th.  Is it still an anniversary if you don’t live there anymore?  Not sure.

Nevertheless, I flew in on a Wednesday night.  The following Thursday morning, I headed to my apartment on 98th and Broadway, sight unseen, where 10 boxes were waiting for me with the doorman.  I had seen the apartment on a Skype tour with my roommate/landlord, emailed and texted with the other girls who lived there, and while this action would not seem logical (or even safe) to most, it made perfect sense to me.  Mailing a check for $1,550 to a stranger?  Sure.  I just knew everything would be fine.

Intuition has gotten me through everything.  Everything.

The day I moved in, I unpacked a few things and headed down the street to get lunch.  I found a place nestled on Amsterdam and 96th with TVs.

There were more people than I would have expected at the bar, eating wings and intently watching some kind of game.  Oh- soccer.  I liked soccer.

I didn’t even understand the importance or care about the World Cup four summers ago when I moved to NYC, but it quickly became my favorite thing.  Why?  Easy- it was socially accepted to go to the bar at noon and eat nachos with cute boys on the Upper West Side.

I met one in particular- Moshe, but he went by Mo- who was from Toronto and lived just north of me on 111th.  We met on my first Saturday in the city when I went to the ‘dam (which has since closed) over eggs benedict and grilled cheese.  He asked me out to dinner that night, and soon after he became one of my favorite summer companions.  World Cup games, Long Island pool days, and Sundays in Riverside Park.

We’re still buddies.

That brings me to my weekend plans- and how much times have changed.

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On Friday afternoon I am heading back to NYC for the weekend- yet I didn’t even consider that it would be the four year mark of my big move.  It feels very appropriate; the New Moon in Gemini, a different Kristin, and of course, coming full circle.

It has not been an easy four years, but I am excited to enjoy a weekend in the city with an entirely new perspective.  Not one with a broken heart like the broken heart I had when I arrived June 18th, 2014 and when I left July 25th, 2016, but with a happy, whole one.

A heart that is grateful.  A heart that knows she doesn’t need boys, beer, or bars.  A heart that is content within herself.

I know my behavior was reckless when I lived there.  I know that.  I am grateful to have gotten out alive (quite literally).  However, those memories are pieces of my life that shaped me into the tough little cookie I am today.  I’ve learned I don’t need to be tough all of the time, though- only when I need to be.

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I couldn’t be told that, though.  I had to learn for myself.

Happy New Moon, everyone.  Let’s set intentions, dream big, and move forward- even when we second guess ourselves.  This is a time to keep going- to keep moving forward with those projects and goals.

I used to avoid success through dating and drinking, and guess what?  It didn’t work.  The Universe knew there was something bigger for me, and I trust that.

“It’s never too late- never too late to start over, never too late to be happy.” -Jane Fonda

Self Care Saturday: Going Phoneless

Happy Memorial Day weekend!  I hope your holiday is off to a good start.

I came home from work today on my first “Summer Friday” of the year, put my bathing suit on, packed my bag, and headed to the park.  As I sat on the grassy lawn this afternoon, I found myself doing multiple things, yet not focusing on any of them.

Music was playing in my headphones.  I had my journal out, three card decks, two colored pens, and a smaller journal.  To top it off, I had taken a picture with my Camera Plus app, but also recorded several Instagram stories.  I moved between app to app, journal to journal, pen to pen, song to song.

I spotted a guy across the park who I chatted with a few days ago.  He was walking his sister’s dog and talking with a group of other people with dogs.  As the dogs ran around the lawn and I squinted to see if I recognized anyone across the field, my water bottle spilled, got all over my yoga mat (I even had the intention of meditating and stretching), and got the butt of my bathing suit wet.

Damn it.

I was thirsty, too.

Nevertheless, I actually rolled my eyes at myself. How could I even talk about being a mindful person if I can’t even focus on one thing on a holiday break?  It was time to relax, yet I’ve been programmed to go-go-go.  Society does that to us- but we don’t have to go with it.

Time for a swift mindfulness kick in the butt (but not a spilled Swell bottle this time).

I thought about what I could do to re-set.  Meditation?  I do that every day already. Exercise?  Yeah, that too.  Skip the coffee?  Oh no, I won’t go that far.

However, one thing did come to mind:

I’ll shut my phone off on Saturday.

Eureka!

With three days off and a beautiful forecast in store, why not spend one of them outside, curled up with a book, writing, creating, or just being?

I’m hoping a little time away from my phone will help calm me down, make me realize not everything has to be done right now, and to appreciate the beauty all around me in the current moment.

We all need a re-set from time to time, so don’t be afraid of indulging in a good dose of self care.  You deserve it!