Over the past few years I’ve learned the benefits of vulnerability and the value of opening yourself up to other people. As a self proclaimed “counterdependent,” I often have a hard time sharing myself with others one-on-one, or showing who I am due to fear of making a connection:
But connection is powerful.
Taking back the narrative of your life and owning your truth is a gift that takes time, but reaps immeasurable results.
I opened myself up to many different people this past year- some in recovery, and some not. Thanks to my friends in sobriety, I learned to safely share my story with people who understand.
However, sometimes you open up to people who don’t- or won’t. That’s okay too.
I was recently in a situation where I was called “fragile” by someone I hardly knew- simply because I am sober in recovery and showed my vulnerable side. What?!
I’m not sure who he thought he was talking to, but I do know today to keep my standards high and my expectations low.
After years of settling for less or compromising my own morals, I’m no longer willing to let someone else dictate my value or worth.
Struggle brings strength, and although I haven’t always made the best choices in my life, I survived my difficulties and have been able to thrive because of them.
The butterfly represents transformation and new beginnings- if she hadn’t struggled to emerge from the cocoon, she wouldn’t have the strength to spread her wings and fly.
She may be delicate, but she certainly isn’t fragile- and neither are you.
“Please don’t disturb my peace if you’re at war with yourself.”
Some people enjoy being angry for the sake of being angry.
Don’t get me wrong; I can understand this. I’ve been there too.
However, today I’m no longer willing to take on the garbage that others try to project onto me.
It’s natural to want to be right, to prove a point, or argue your side of the story. But does it really matter?
Today I’d rather be listen to my tunes, stroll down the street, and be peaceful.
Yesterday I had the day off for Patriot’s Day- a holiday celebrated in both Massachusetts and Maine- and decided to spend my afternoon recharging in nature. Although I was tempted to watch the Boston Marathon runners along Beacon Street, I knew it would be best for me to connect my mind, body, and spirit with a dose peace and quiet.
We are a society on the go, and often times we neglect to honor our natural rhythms and cycles.
The number 4 represents the state of being- “things are as they are.” Through planting myself in nature, I got back to my roots and centered myself.
4 energy also represents a sacred space, a sanctuary, and embodies security- which is exactly how I felt sitting along the Charles River, breathing in the warm air and listening to the birds chirp all around me. I have my own sacred space in my home, but there’s nothing like being one with nature, allowing all feelings and thoughts to flow.
There are 4 seasons, 4 elements, 4 directions; 4 is an instrumental number, symbolizing a strong foundation and the natural cycles of life.
Since April is a 4 month, I’ve been focusing on developing my own solid foundation by taking small steps to build a peaceful and purposeful life on a daily basis. Whether it’s meditating by the river or being mindful of what you eat, consider what you’re doing today to honor your mind, body, and spirit.
You’re worth it.