I’ve sometimes wondered why my path has been so up and down, back and forth. From the cities I’ve lived in to the variety of jobs on my resume, people have never been able to quite figure me out. I don’t care. However, as I reflect on the past ten years or so, my passions and values have been exactly the same; I just didn’t know what to do to manifest them into a stable life.
I’ve done all kinds of things to seek stability, but in the end, they just weren’t in alignment with my creative nature or the purpose lined up for me. I’ve had an incredible need to experience all life has to offer, yet when my heart is full and I’m doing what I love, I see no need for anything more.
This past year was a time of “cleaning house,” letting go, and laying the foundation for the future. Before now I never asked for what I wanted… because I didn’t quite know yet.
First, I had to get into alignment with my heart to figure it out.
I’ll be ringing in 2018 the same way I did last year– going to The Nest for Brenda’s New Year’s Eve party and making vision boards. I had a great time last year, just shy of one month into my life in Massachusetts. Back then I had no idea what my future would look like; I just wanted to heal and be happy.
and I did.
My vision board for 2017 was spot-on aside from a trip to Paris and a money tree. It wasn’t a very ambitious vision board… it looks like I set out to spend the year lounging in bed (partially true). Jokes aside, I’m no longer spinning my wheels like I used to. There was a lot of self-discovery, self-care, and self-compassion. I gave myself a break of trying to be “perfect” and used the year to document the lessons I learned along the way.
I used to dip my toes into situations only to pull back out and try something new. No; not any longer. I’ll be turning 33 this Friday (12/22!) and I’m no longer concerned about checking off “life boxes” like I was in my 20’s. I’ve had many opportunities to check them all more than once, but I turned my nose and chose freedom.
I’ll always choose freedom. The right person won’t restrict me from living out my purpose, because I’ll be in alignment with my soul.
It’s extremely exciting and uplifting to know that our thoughts create our reality. We have the freedom to build whatever we want in this life. In 2018, I will no longer sell myself short- I’ll continue writing, keep a budget, find that publisher, finish my book, travel more, and connect with even more amazing people who inspire me to be the best I can be. Thanks to finally doing work I love, living in a place that feels like home, and surrounding myself with people who encourage me, I have a newfound faith in the future.
Most importantly, I have a newfound faith in myself.