Living With Grace and Grit

I’m still coming down from all of the creative and inspirational energy I took in from my last trip to NYC. Wow! From the moment I saw the skyline to the feeling I had while driving out of the city, the weekend was nothing but magic.

One of my favorite moments from my trip back to New York was when I arrived at Queensboro Plaza and noticed all the synchronicity around me.

From the number “7” (which had been following me around all weekend) to the purple color of the train line, it seemed like everything was a sign.

A sign I’m on the right path. A sign for my next steps. A sign telling me I am fine as I am.

After my trip, my perception changed; not just about the city, but about my own life. It occurred to me that I wasn’t living up to my own potential because outside voices have been holding me back. As a result, my dreamer (and sometimes grandiose) nature has second guessed herself, creating her own negative voices inside her head.

So, I stopped listening.

My path has been anything but traditional, and although I’ve attempted to go the “traditional route,” something has always blocked me from fitting in. It used to be my own self sabotage and issues with self esteem, alcohol, and emotions- however, as of the past year, it’s been because I have been standing up for what I believe in.

I came to Boston to fearlessly look in the mirror and step into the person I am meant to be- without distractions- so the last thing I will allow in my life is someone or an institution to cause me to step backwards.

Most recently, my passion for helping people and inspiring others to see life through a new lens has caused quite a bit of discontentment with the “3D world.” Our society as a whole isn’t quite ready to see life through a new light, but I know there is a place and purpose for me to share my story and strength.

Some people just want to sit in their own misery, though.

This brings me to the whole theory of the “imposter syndrome.” It makes me wonder how many people wake up in the morning, put on their suit or shiny heels, and honestly can go in thinking they’re a “professional.” As if putting on a show and acting for the sake of a paycheck is any way to live. To think living for the weekend or retirement is the only way to live.

Sorry to say, boys and girls, but that’s how our society is programmed. It’s pathetic.

Personally, I would rather live a short life that is full of, well, life. A life of purpose, not routine.

How many of those people feel restricted? How many of those people know they have better ways to spend their day? How many have talents to give but never will, all because society is telling them their dreams are silly?

I have no idea, but I’m done pretending.

I was told to “tone down” my personality and to leave personal talk at home. That’s fair. However, that’s not the environment God wants for me. I wasn’t given talents to shuffle papers and follow some man’s rules to make him feel superior.

I wasn’t given the gift of a grit-filled past with a touch of grace to simply keep quiet.

My story is meant to be shared.

What’s my next step? I’m not sure. However, I am confident my work will be of use to many people- so I am done holding back.

I am ready for my answer, and my next big adventure.

Congratulations, Hoda!

I used to be a part of AOL’s Style Network (once called StyleList) of bloggers while living in New York.  One of the perks was attending exclusive events, including the Build Series.  Two years ago this week, I had the pleasure of attending Hoda’s talk, who was at the AOL Headquarters promoting her book Where We Belong (I got to see Sam Waterston that day, too!).  The book came at the perfect time, as I had accidentally deleted my fashion blog six days before (a happy mistake), wondering “what now?”  My fashion-focused self had been much of my identity for years, but I knew it was time for something more meaningful and authentic. Little did I know, January 2016 would be the beginning of my actual writing career… or at least the foundation of it.

I took Hoda’s talk to heart that day; her stories of strength, failures, and divine timing hit close to home.  Sometimes opportunities fall away or push you out, all because they weren’t in alignment with your soul’s passion.  I identified as a fashion marketer and blogger for so long, that I didn’t even realize that is was okay to chose a new representative.

On to the good news!  This morning it was announced that Hoda will be replacing Matt Lauer on the Today show!  I couldn’t be more thrilled.  Hoda will bring amazing energy to the show; even in just the short hour I was in the room with her, she had the ability to make everyone feel like her friend.  That’s exactly what Today needs after Lauer’s departure… and is further proof that the future is definitely female.

Congratulations again, Hoda! From a small town girl in Virginia to a news reporter in Mississippi, she is a true inspiration to anyone following their dreams.  You never know where the path will take you… but keep following your heart.

Quit Hiding Your Magic

The coffee’s brewing and the sun is shining- it’s time for another work week. After three days of reading, reflecting and relaxation I gave some thought to my life here in Boston and how different it is compared to just a few months ago. I spent most of the long weekend in my new home, snuggling with Clarissa the cat, indulging in Netflix and writing- but most importantly, enjoying each moment. It was nice enjoying me time to recharge.

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Although I have always beat to my own drum, I have actually lived my life looking over my shoulder, always wondering what everyone else had to say about what I was doing. Despite bold moves, impulsive behavior and living a pseudo-nomad lifestyle, I still sought approval from those around me. What a waste of time.

I’ve begun to wonder how I have subconsciously allowed people to hold me back from true happiness- from fulfilling my purpose because I was scared.

I have shied away from opportunities because I was fearful of failure or what others would say about my work. I’ve listened to naysayers who told me that my dreams were too big or that I would never make it. I also wondered, “what do I want?”  Everyone’s version of success is different, whether your dreams are to become a doctor, a parent, an actress or an athlete- if your dream is to travel, to write, to create art… that’s wonderful, too. There’s magic all around us… what is yours?

Variety is the spice of life- so quit hiding your magic. Now is your time.

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