I’ve always been the type of person who kept her circle small.
Growing up, I had one best friend- we were both artists who shied away from the more rambunctious children. We didn’t participate in the gossip, nor did we play rough. We spent time drawing, chatting on the swing set, and using our imagination to create a magical world around us.
As I got older, my habits stayed the same. I wasn’t invited to parties and I didn’t sit with the popular group at lunch- nor did I try to.
I’ve always done my own thing- but I have been fortunate to always have a few good friends.
Friends who always “get” me. Friends who have my best interest at heart. Friends who encourage me to be my best self- and who see the beauty within that I may not recognize on my own.
As an adult, I realize that I won’t be liked by everyone. I wouldn’t want to be! Not everyone is on the same path- and that is okay. We are all on our own journey.
Today, I don’t have to take other people’s criticism personal, and I don’t have to engage or acknowledge their drama- because I know that the people who do matter to me are all I need.
Did you know 11/11/18 is one of the most powerful days for manifestation?
2018 is an 11 year (2 + 0 + 1 + 8 = 11), which holds the energy of creation, spiritual enlightenment, and authentic expression. With three 11’s in the date, the energy is amplified, being three times as powerful.
Even the actual shape of the number 11 represents a gateway; if you notice, you’ll see how 11 looks like two pillars. This gateway is a direct portal between divine inspiration and grounded manifestation.
Do you ever wonder why you continually receive the same ideas over and over, but haven’t acted on them? Perhaps you see all the signs, have repeating thoughts, or hear messages from others reminding you of these ideas. For me, my own passion for helping others through writing has manifested over the years, but I continue to wonder how to take it further. What is the universe telling me? Even more importantly, how do I act on it to bring my ideas to life?
I have big goals and dreams, and I know you do too.
11/11 is the time to stop, meditate, and ask for guidance.
Think about what your heart truly desires. What signs keep leading you in that direction? What actions can you take now to bring your ideas to life?
For 11/11, there are many steps you can take to manifest your divine inspiration into reality.
First, clear your energy. You can do this through meditation, smudging (I recommend white sage), lighting incense, or clearing your aura with crystals. Clear Quartz is a powerful crystal for clearing work as well as amplifying the energy of your own spirit and the other crystals in your collection.
Next, find a quiet space to write down your dreams and goals. Focus on what you do want, not the things you don’t. Whether you write these goals down or create a vision board, your creative efforts will be recognized by the universe and the spirit guides who help lead you on the right path.
Now, ask for guidance. Meditation is a powerful way to let your guides know your intentions. I try and meditate for at least a half hour every day- sometimes longer. By centering my mind and spirit, I am able to clear the outside noise and connect with my higher, authentic self- the self I am meant to be.
It’s common to be confused about what your heart actually desires when society can sway you in many different directions. Meditation assists in reaching into your soul, not media messages or what someone else’s opinion is.
This 11/11, tap into what your soul’s calling is, and visualize the future you wish to manifest. Your thoughts are powerful, and so is your ability to create a life you love. ✨
There comes a day when you stop letting the outside world trick you into thinking there is only one way to life, security, happiness, and success.
A lovely friend of mine, a neurologist in Cambridge, described the city perfectly to me once:
“Cambridge: where everyone thinks they’re a ‘renegade.'”
I had only been in Boston for a few months, so I hadn’t yet gotten an impression of the people or the culture. However, I liked this idea, and I certainly loved Cambridge.
Although I used to wish I had taken a traditional path (or at least a “laid out” one) I realize now through listening to others that it wouldn’t have been right for me. I have spent the past 11 years trying to “fit” the mold; city to city, job to job, relationship to relationship. It was a struggle trying to fit this square peg in a round hole.
I had simply assumed by speaking with her, the grounded and successful woman she is, that she must have had an easier path than mine. That things came naturally to her. That she followed her heart when making her career choice. However, upon knowing her better, I learned that it wasn’t her choice to become a doctor; it was her father’s.
I met this woman April of 2017, and she played an instrumental role helping me learn I am enough. She said to me, over and over, that I am fine just as I am.
I didn’t realize what she meant until now.
As my life came together, fell apart, and came back together time and time again back in the summer of 2017, my friend (who I just visited in NYC) also reminded me of how strong I am. Although I felt hopeless at times, she saw the light in me. She recognized my strengths. She helped me see my own light; and in turn, I have been able to do the same for her.
It’s interesting how we can get down on ourselves so easily, yet we are much stronger than we give ourselves credit for.
Now, let’s go back to the idea of a “renegade.”
This made me laugh.
However, much of our society blindly follows the unwritten rules the “patriarchy” laid out years ago, without question.
I can’t imagine living an existence where I don’t question these rules.
As I began to step into my authentic self, I stood up to “the man.” I have ignored their sexist comments. I have ignored people telling me I can’t do things. I have been independent.
Perhaps this does make me a “renegade.”
Over the years I thought about what society wanted me to do; or at least, what those around me expected. I thought that if I got an advanced degree, a certain job, or had impressive credentials, I would please others.
But why did I care about pleasing the patriarchy?
I wasn’t pleasing myself.
As I have let the ideas of what other people “expect” from me, I realize that I wasn’t doing anyone any good. I wasn’t happy in relationships or jobs where I couldn’t be myself. I wasn’t succeeding in roles that didn’t align with my talents. I felt anxiety in environments I forced myself to be in.
As my spiritual practice and confidence grows, the more I realize that manmade rules are simply tricks to give others power.
We have all the power we need within ourselves.
The more fearlessly honest I am, the more gifts have appeared in my life. I’ve been published in places I never dreamed to see my work, I’ve received heartfelt letters from readers who didn’t know who else to turn to, and I’ve gotten the opportunity (and blessing) to find inner peace, joy, and empowerment through my authenticity.
I used to water down my personality to “fit in.” That didn’t serve anyone. Today, I refuse to play a role in society; I will live my truth.
I came to this earth for a reason; and that reason wasn’t to follow the patriarchy, let someone scare me into doing things their way, or let others take my power.
My reason was to help others realize they, too, can fearlessly spread their wings and fly.
Money used to be a scary thing to me. Money is necessary for all of us to live, which can be very intimidating. There’s good news, though: there are endless ways to earn it. Endless!
Just the other week I was thinking, “how am I going to supplement my income when school is out for holiday?” This was a fear-based thought. Suddenly, I acknowledged it and re-framed my thinking. I looked online, got some advice from family and friends, then decided to take action. I was clear about what I was looking for, which hasn’t always been the case in the past. I used to scramble, hustle, and take the first thing that came along- no wonder I wasn’t content in some of the positions I took.
Once I looked at my holiday week as an opportunity, not one, but two options presented themselves. I also received emails out of nowhere from people asking about marketing work (which I have retired for writing and education).
Then, it clicked. money isn’t anything to be afraid of. Money is energy.
The more you put in, the more you get out- but I didn’t understand what that meant in the past. I used to think hard work meant long hours, climbing your way to the top, office politics, networking, etc. No. You must work with your heart, not out of fear- fear of not enough. You also need to work smarter, not harder. Yes, success does come from hard work and a lot of time, but when you’re doing what you love, it’s effortless. I found myself writing from 8AM until 2 in the morning on Saturday! I only got up to go get food; yet it was the most pleasant day I’ve had in a while.
Opportunities begin to align when you stay true to yourself and listen to what soul your soul is saying- not the outside world.
We all need to pay bills, but there are endless ways you can do something you actually enjoy if you follow your gut and ignore your ego. Remember that you’re of service to the world, and if you are co-creating with source / a higher power, your light will shine through and you will be rewarded.
The rewards may not always be monetary- at least not right away- but rest assured that you’ll always be taken care of. Each day I feel rewarded after leaving school or working on my writing, but it’s on an emotional level. These are things I would do for free! (but thankfully I don’t have to)
I have also been channeling Archangel Gabriel, the angel of communication, to help support my work. Earlier this year I began following Melanie Beckler of Ask-Angels.com, where I have been learning a lot on connecting and communicating with our guides. Archangel Gabriel looks over the creatives and messengers- the writers, teachers, artists, and journalists. It’s interesting to see how angels can help us in our daily lives, including our work!
Additionally, I love using my crystals to help support my work, too. I wear Citrine to connect with Archangel Gabriel and carry Red Jasper for grounding, Rose Quartz to keep me aligned with love, and Green Jade to attract abundance!
Remember, it’s all in your vibration. Keep thinking positive- your energy will support you along the way.