Rejuvenate and Rebalance

Lately I have been feeling a lot of deja vu. Perhaps it’s the spring season, or the shifts of energy… but somehow, I keep getting the same feelings of hope and optimism that I had four years ago before moving to New York.

This also brings a bit of uncertainty; am I preparing for a change? Is something big on the horizon? Or, maybe, this change is on the inside.

It’s hard to say, but I’ll try not to overthink it and just enjoy each day.

After living in Boston for a year and a half now, I’ve reflected a lot on my experiences and how I’ve healed from the life I was living before moving here. I’ve learned the power of vulnerability, and that the right people come into your life at the right time. I’ve learned that curveballs provide great lessons, and that sometimes you have to take a step backwards to take two steps forward.

As I have cut baggage from my life- old patterns, behaviors, and thoughts, I also decided it was time to cut one more thing- my hair.

It seemed symbolic for the time, because it was four years ago this month when I cut my hair before, too. Full of excitement for the future, I opted for a new blonde bob, packed my bags, and left for a new life in NYC. Well, this year isn’t quite the same, but I have the same fresh feeling as I did four years ago- but I won’t let my story end the same this time.

Yesterday I woke up, fixed my new hair-do, and headed to an energy healing- just in the nick of time. There’s a fun background on how this energy healing happened, too:

Last weekend I serendipitously passed a street sale in Arlington on my way to the library, which just happened to be closed because of Memorial Day. However, as I strolled through the sale, I found two 25 cent books for sale- both on meditation and energy. When I headed to the table to check out, one of the ladies told me about an energy healing raffle going on. I filled out a card, bought my books, and headed back home.

A couple of days later, I received an email saying I was the winner! What a surprise. They had availability for Saturday morning, so, as an appropriate way to start my month, I booked a 9am appointment.

This was my first time having energy work done, and it was a very comfortable and interesting experience. We discussed where I thought I held onto negative energy, and chatted about my lifestyle, stresses, and passions.

After the session was finished, she asked how I felt. It was hard to pin point at the time; I was extremely relaxed, fuzzy, and calm. She did tell me that I am holding an immense amount of energy in my stomach, which I have never heard before. It all makes sense, though- she described it as the “butterfly in your stomach” feeling. Oh, do I ever know that feeling all too well!

In addition to holding stress in my solar plexus chakra, she mentioned my need for grounding work. Although my upper chakras are active and well, I have a hard time grounding. This made a lot of sense, too.

After I left, I thought about ways I count ground, calm my brain, and redistribute my energy. Instead of being stuck in my head all of the time, holding energy in the wrong places, how can I rebalance? So, I decided to go to the park.

It was a beautiful, hot June afternoon- until the rain came. I felt the rain hit my skin, feeling refreshed and rejuvenated. I headed home and put on some comfy clothes, opened my laptop, and started the new season of Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt.

Sometimes we just need a day or two to calm our minds, sit in nature, and rest. Saturday provided that opportunity for me to just be, reflect, and look forward to whatever is next. I don’t have to know what today or tomorrow will bring, as long as I am grounded in the moment- with a fresh new haircut. ūüĆŅ

Lessons From a Yoga Class

Last night after work I went to yoga to recenter and unwind. Instead of focusing on an intention when we began, the teacher suggested we think about something we’re good at or proud of.¬† She shared a story about her stellar ability to parallel park; although everyone laughed, her point was understood.

We need to celebrate all our positive qualities, not just pick out the negative.

We are our worst critics.¬† After busy days at work, responsibilities, and (for some) families to care for, we can easily feel we’re slacking in certain areas of our lives or not living up to our potential.¬† Sometimes we need to focus on those little things- those tiny victories- to help get us through the day.¬† ¬†We may beat ourselves up for mistakes or flaws, but she reminded us to focus on what¬†your own parallel parking is.

Yoga taught me several lessons last night.  Certain positions were uncomfortable; I felt wobbly and weak, but remembered: next time will be better.  That was why I was there- to gain strength, mentally and physically- not because it was supposed to be easy.

Life is like that, too.

At one point the instructor came up to me and helped me with a pose, which normally would make me feel embarrassed or uncomfortable- but last night it didn’t.¬† I felt grateful.¬† My ego wasn’t on the forefront- I was there to learn and to grow.

That’s what life is all about.

As yoga came to a close, she said to the class: “My goal for all of you is to stop moving out of habit.”

Then, in my mind I thought, “stop moving out of habit- move out of purpose.”

We run around all day, multitask, cross off to-do lists, and fill our calendars.  But do we really need to be moving?  Maybe, just maybe, we can take a deep breath and slow down.  We can focus on those things we do well, and continue to grow in the things we need to improve.

Our egos are merely an illusion; are we moving to keep up with our neighbors, or because we have a purpose?  Are we trying to impress those around us, or are we following our own hearts?

Setting intentions that are true to you¬†and remembering all of your gifts and talents¬†is so important on a daily basis.¬† In the hustle and bustle of everyday life, we need to remember what’s going right, not wrong.

Last night I focused on my strengths, went easy on myself for not being “perfect,” and accepted the help that was offered to me. I’m going into this Wednesday with a grateful heart and open mind- although certain poses may be uncomfortable, we’re building up to be even stronger tomorrow.

Mountain Escape: Soul Recharge

Nothing makes you feel small like being at the top of a mountain.  Looking down at thousands of trees, tiny buildings, and snow capped rocks really puts life into perspective.

Today we ventured to Boulder, a city I’d never been to before.¬† I’ve been in Denver for five days now and have been in awe of the constant sunshine, majestic mountains, and overall chill vibe.¬† There’s definitely a¬†much less chill energy on the east coast- unless you count the New England air.

We drove up Flagstaff Mountain to catch the views, stopping several times along the way.¬† Although it was a bitter 24 degrees, the sun made it feel much warmer- unless there was wind, of course.¬† Even though it’s been warmer in Boston, this¬†week was the perfect time for me to go on a getaway, relax, and recharge my batteries.¬† There’s something about the fresh mountain breeze and sunny days that makes you feel brand new.

It’s important to remember that spending time in nature is a perfect way to engage in self-care.¬† Connecting with the earth helps to ground you, relieves anxiety, and balances your root chakra.¬† Having a solid foundation and a clear outlook is important for starting a new week, project, or job- I never used to realize how therapeutic being outside was, but it’s been one of the most helpful forms of “medicine” in my life this past year.

Whether you’re by a park, beach, mountain, river, or lake, spending time in nature is one of the best ways to recharge your soul and re-energize your spirit.¬† ¬†I love meditating outside in the sunshine, going for walks along the water, or just grabbing coffee and strolling through the park.

I hope you’ve been able to recharge this weekend- March is almost here, so make the most of this last week of February!¬† I’ll be enjoying the chill Colorado vibes in the meantime.