For years and years, I tried to hold onto the Kristin I once was.
I romanticized old lovers and bad habits, altered the person I was to fit with the people around me, and questioned who I was to the core. I continually ran from myself, jet-setting to a new city only to discover I was still exactly where I always was.
You can’t escape your soul.
The same people or places I tried to avoid would resurface no matter what neighborhood, city, or state I was in- they may have had a different face, but they were always the same.
Everything I tried to steer clear of would manifest in one form or another until I learned two valuable lessons:
- I needed to love who (and where) I was
- I needed a new perspective
I couldn’t change what was going on around me, but I could accept where I was at- but most of all, accept myself.
Since I started writing about my sobriety, a whole new world has opened up. I have stopped thinking I needed to sugarcoat my struggles, and I am no longer ashamed of the person I am. The quirks that make me who I am are ones I want to celebrate- not hide!
Maybe that “you” who you love isn’t new after all, but it’s one who is authentic. Embrace her- she’s worth it!
I’ve never been a fan of routine.
In an effort to add some excitement to my morning walk to work, I took an unusual turn. Instead of walking down the same street, looking at the same storefronts and sights, a little voice in my head told me to do something different today.
As I strolled down the tree lined street, I noticed something shiny on the ground. I walked toward it, noticed it was a notebook, and picked it up- wet and all. Wiping off the morning dew, I opened it, expecting it to be filled out; left on the sidewalk as trash.
It was brand new.
Not only were the pages blank, but it matched my aesthetic: blank and rose gold, complete with a heart.
I thought about the feminine design, symbolizing my own willingness to open my heart- and to open to a new page.
We may hold onto the past or regret decisions we have made, but every twist, turn, and detour has a deeper purpose. These turns may have an unexpected outcome or a beautiful surprise, but when we live in the present moment, we will discover an important lesson:
Our true purpose is to live in the joy of our everyday journey.
Sometimes we just have to start our day off a little differently and be open to what comes our way.
Everyone has their own way of connecting with something bigger than themselves.
For some, it means religion, while for others, it’s through connecting with nature, animals, or music. From believing in the natural flow of the universe to seeing a higher power work through other people, there is no doubt in my mind that I am being guided by something bigger than me.
There have been times I’ve missed a train, noticed a street sign, or gotten a phone call that made me realize there was something out there working in my favor.
If I had gotten on the first train, I wouldn’t have bumped into an old friend on the second one.
Had I not spotted the street sign, I wouldn’t have thought of a potential writing topic.
Just as I was thinking of someone, they called.
My higher power shows me signs in my everyday life.
Not only do I believe in connecting with source energy- keeping my thoughts positive and my vibration high– but I also believe in being guided by angels. Just the other day, after thinking about my Grandma Arlene, I found a dime and my lost Angelite stone under my bed while looking for a pair of shoes.
There are no coincidences in my life.
You never know why things happen the way they do, but you can take some comfort in knowing that they always find a way to work.
Just be open and aware- you may be surprised at what you find.
Here is an interesting video about feeling disconnected from the physical world when you experience a spiritual awakening.