On this New Moon, it’s the perfect time to align with your inner child and bring together both your higher consciousness and your life on earth. As Tanaaz wrote in Forever Conscious:
“The Gemini twins also represent being connected to earth and connected to heaven. Being the bridge between these two states is what life is all about and we may be reminded of this on the New Moon.
How do we live connected to the physical reality we see and the spirit reality we feel?”
Gemini is all about dualities- right and left brain, process vs intuition, feminine and masculine, the sun and the moon. We can be both creative and logical. We can be an adult and still live with childlike wonder and enchantment.
During the quarantine, I’ve spent a lot of time remembering what sparked my joy as a small person who was yet to be conditioned by society’s expectations. So, I found some paint, and I sat on the floor and began to create things. It’s such a natural high to do what you love- and it’s amazing how I suppressed it for so many years.
Since re-discovering the creative, playful Kristin I once was, my relationships have changed, too. People either love me or stay away from me- and it’s all because of my aura.
A few weeks ago I met up with a friend who invited another girl along for coffee. Much later, I learned she asked my friend if I was high. High! 😹 Sure, I was a black out drinker, but it caught me by surprise how someone would associate my natural personality with being “on” something.
It’s amazing to me how natural joy, flamboyance, or my theatrical personality could be seen as unnatural. That is why I drank for so many years- to feel comfortable in my own skin!
What a gift that I finally do- without a drink or a pill.
It’s amazing how it unfathomable for someone to be naturally happy and uplifted- but since I’ve found that peace, I’m not going back.
True freedom is only found within- but it takes a lot of onion layers and learning to find the way. 💛
While living in Massachusetts, I was inspired to create a brand that brought together mindful moments, minimalist style, and the beauty of everyday life.
After returning from a magical trip back to my second home, New York City, I spotted a pair of angel wings painted along The Coop in Harvard Square. I knew the story I was writing for myself wasn’t authentic- and this piece of street art gave me the confidence to leave a career that was crushing my spirit.
I bought a blank sketchbook and began to paint inspirational words, design clothing, and come up with ideas to make old things new.
Now back in my hometown of Traverse City, Michigan, I’ve picked the sketchbook back up and started leaving rocks with inspirational messages around town. Through bringing together my writing, art, and photography, Miss 1984 was born- and there’s a little Miss (The Mindful in Style Shop) in all of us.
I hope to inspire others to pause, look within, and enjoy the beautiful moments all around them.
It’s hard to believe 2020 is almost half over, but I’ve begun to see even more clearly; and this moon, it’s time to say goodbye to that first half.
The Scorpio Flower Moon is a time for healing, letting go, and beginning a new chapter. have reflected on the opportunities I once accepted, realizing how undervalued and misunderstood I was.
The thing is, we aren’t aligned for every opportunity- and we don’t have to explain ourselves to those who don’t understand our journey.
The articles I wrote for publications that weren’t used? Now they’re relevant.
The businesses who didn’t want to pay me for my work? Farewell.
The people I confided in who turned around and talked about others behind their back to me? Those aren’t the kind of friends I need.
Creative work isn’t free.
Sometimes it can be difficult to see people trying to mask taking advantage of you as friendship- but I could never represent a brand, publication, or business who didn’t value people’s individuality, talents, or journey.
Henri Bendel “Align Astrology” launch event, 2016. A great brand I used to work with and will forever miss.
Now that I’ve seen the light, I know what my purpose is right now- and moving backward toward low energy isn’t in my cards.
This the perfect time to focus on my art, connect with others I met along the way, and use what I’ve learned to help others through my writing.
I’ve healed to the point where I now know my own worth, and this next half of 2020, I’ll no longer dim my light or reduce myself to what others want me to be.
Who knows what the future has in store, but I can tell you one thing: I’m not going back to the old normal.
Fashion has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember, ingrained in my very mold from a mother who adores herself.
For those who have followed along, you may have read my stories of my fashion blogging days. I moved to New York City as a blogger back in 2014, before the term “influenced” was mainstream. My blog consisted of a mixture of high and low style, from thrifty finds to a secondhand designer bag. I often wore clothes and accessories created from friends or up-and-coming designers while pairing it with
I recently bought a shirt from J. Crew as nod to my hometown. Although I typically buy everything secondhand or created, I couldn’t miss out on this tee. I wondered, “what was the inspiration? Who at the J. Crew offices have a connection with Northern Michigan?
Today, J. Crew was the first major retail brand to file bankruptcy during COVID-19.
This made me wonder, what will things be like when the world opens up again? What will people be purchasing?
Will they be going for basics? Will they stock up on colors to feel joyful during this strange new era? Will people spend at all?
What will happen within the fashion industry in the “new normal?”
Over the past few years I’ve seen of my favorite brands fade away- even Henri Bendel, the longest standing store on Fifth Avenue.
Although change can be scary, even though something else ended, it creates space for something even better grow in its place.
My thoughts go out to J. Crew and its employees, family, shoppers, and friends- but I’m confident there are brighter days ahead. There always is.
I realized the other day that maybe I’ve had it right this whole time.
The world said, “get a job.” “Find a stable life.” “Plant roots.” “Get married.” “Settle down.” My heart always rejected these concepts and my gut told me, “create. Move. Teach. Grow.” Although I’ve always wanted love, I knew in my soul it wasn’t time to stay in one place quite yet.
Now, the world’s “stable” foundation isn’t so stable- and we are stuck with selves. The mortage. The fancy car. The credit cards.
Those roots weren’t so stable, were they?
Now the world is beginning to see the need for building a solid foundation, a connection to Mother Earth, and to connect with one another. We may have operated on an “all for ourselves” plane in the past, but that is shifting- and the Coronavirus is very symbolic of that.
Leaving rocks around Traverse City is also representative of the solid foundation we all have the ability to build ourselves- without the fancy title, the busy social calendar, and the the seemingly perfect exterior.
You already have all the power you need within.
It’s pretty scary to start from scratch- but when I quit my job that sucked my soul, started drinking again, and lost my apartment, I sat with self- for a long time.
The key was looking within- and learning to create with what you’ve got. Not looking at anyone else to fill your dreams.
Finding a tiny piece of hope in this chaotic world was the first step to rebuilding my foundation- and although it wasn’t comfortable, it was worth it.
I wrote this poem a couple of years ago when I was feeling like my world would never get repaired- but somehow, it did.
When I was in treatment, I didn’t have much to work with- just books, self reflection, coloring pages, and my imagination. As an empath, it was nearly impossible not to pick up the negative emotions of the other recovering people around me- but I learned to create and sit with self during times of chaos. Although it seemed tragic at the time, living with 20 other people in treatment was the best thing that ever could have happened to this finicky only child.
I may not have had paint and a cell phone in treatment centers, but I totally had markers and made the most of the situation. 🙂 I wrote a poem after finding inspiration by Mystic Lake in Arlington- the original city I started painting words in gold. As a man rode by on a jet sky, he waved with a smile- and it made me think, “that’s what I want.”
Joy. Fun. Love.
But most of all, peace.
I may never fit into a box, but I’ll always fit into many worlds- because now I know my home is within. 🧚🏻♀️
While I went through my own personal crisis in my late 20’s and early 30’s I learned a lot of things.
Needless to say, I have my own perspective on the state of the world and its reaction to the Coronavirus.
I almost died more times than I can count. I went to the hospital with a BAC a of .6 and was told later I shouldn’t have lived. I’ve been taken out of work functions (plural) in an ambulance.
Yes, I did this all to myself, but it was a byproduct of unresolved trauma and pain. So, I started to work on it. It wasn’t pretty, and new issues pop up all the time. Today I can handle those issues productively.
I understand there is a universe all order to life. I understand I had a reason to live. So I kept writing, and I kept growing.
Now that we’re in the midst of a global crisis, I can use these lessons and help others. It might not be much, and I may not be able to solve anyone’s health or financial problems, but if I can shed just a little bit of light, then you may understand why I’m so passionate about writing my not-so-pretty experiences.
I’m sure a lot of people won’t agree with my perspective, and that’s okay. Since I already stay home the majority of the time I’m not working (and the other is spent by myself or with a friend outside), I intend to spend this time completing my v-steam course, finishing my book, and reaching out to literary agents.
It’s hard to believe I just learned about Human Design a few short weeks ago.
On an ordinary day, a friend (who happens to be my birthday twin) texted me about her recent obsession with her Human Design chart. What was she talking about? I quickly Googled, only to discover a whole new world- the world of Human Design.
Using figures such as birth date, time, and city, each person in this world has a unique blueprint of their design- a design composed of energy centers (which are defined or undefined), gates, and channels. Every person also has a type, an inner authority, definition, and a profile.
I used MyBodyGraph for my chart, which saves all your information when you create an account, but I also like using Jovian Archive and Health Manifested, too. Each property of my Human Design chart took some time to look up- from learning what my open Head and Anja centers mean to discovering how to respond as a Manifesting Generator- but it’s a fun study I could spend days reading up on.
One of the most fascinating parts of my chart was learning my “Profile,” which is comprised of two number lines, each giving important composites that describe someone’s qualities. My Profile is a 4/6, the “Opportunist Role Model,” which is known for its three stages of life-
Stage 1 happens from birth to roughly age 30 (around the Saturn Return). During this time, there are strong 3rd line vibes of discovery-based learning and bonds made and broken.
Stage 2 roughly begins after the Saturn Return is over and lasts until the Chiron Return, approximately ages 30-50. During this time, there’s the opportunity to retreat and heal, and to reflect in order to gain a bit of perspective around all that happened during the first 30-ish years.
Stage 3 begins after the Chiron Return and lasts as long as we do. During this point in time, the 6th line has turned experience into wisdom via their reflection and is now ready to reengage with life armed with lessons learned via lived experience.
Here’s how this three-stage process looks for the 4/6:
The 6th line’s goal during stage 1 is to gather and collect experiences via trial and error. During this time, the 4th line craves stability and a solid foundation, so typically the things the 6th line is willing to try is in pursuit of this stability. This stage is all about lessons learned, so not every attempt at stability will be successful…but that’s just part of the discovery process.
The 6th line’s goal during stage 2 is to provide time for reflection and healing, and allow for the perspective that comes with distance. This is when the 4th line finally gets the stability it craves, as career, friends and family start to be called in.
The 6th line’s goal during stage 3 is completing the final step where experience through reflection becomes wisdom, and that wisdom can now be applied in a far more frequently successful way. Over the course of your life, as you gain more experience and hold space to reflect on that experience to acquire valuable perspective, 4/6s are able to get the head and the heart on the same page far more easily and more often.
This is especially pertinent to me as a former city-hopper, career-changer, and serial dater. Until moving home to Michigan in October, I was consistently out of alignment with what was in my heart- but that wasn’t a flaw. It was because I was in my first phase of life- the trial and error phase. When I started Mindful in Style back in 2016, I was beginning to gather the lessons I had learned over the years and started to write about the new ones as I experienced them- which is written all over my chart (no pun intended).
Based on my design, I was never meant to stay at one job, settle down after college, or find my partner in my 20’s. I was meant to move around, learn lessons, make mistakes, and discover important truths based on my experiences- not textbooks or from living out societal norms.
My inner authority, Sacral, is that ping in my stomach which tells me “uh huh” or “uh uh” when making decisions- and throughout my entire life, I’ve followed it. When my gut told me to call of my wedding, I did it. When I made the choice to move to New York, I went for it. When leaving a job seemed like the right thing to do, I didn’t hesitate.
My decisions have never been based on logic or facts, but that inner voice advising me which direction to go. While some people may not understand this, other empaths and those with sacral authority think it makes perfect sense. My open head and anja centers deliver information to me, while my defined spleen guides me through my intuition.
I have always known I would be okay, too- no matter what other people have told me. It’s that inner authority telling me so.
Based on my design, I was always meant to spread my wings and fly, only to return to the nest to heal and retreat (which is the beginning of my second stage), write about what I’ve learned, and continue to follow the path as my life manifests.
I don’t know what my tomorrows will bring, but thanks to my Human Design chart, I know I’m following the authentic path designed for me- a path only I need to understand, too.