False Strength: Coming Home

Three years ago I took a one way flight to Boston.  Seemingly fearless and free, my eyes were wide open and my heart was full of hope.

Although my life on the outside was often beautiful, I still had a hole within my soul.  I did anything I could to fill it- healthy friendships, meditation, sobriety, spirituality, nature, crystals- you name it.  Even the best supports, jobs, or material things left me empty.

What could be wrong?

Looking for fulfillment, I moved all over since 2008- San Francisco, Austin, New York, Chicago, Boston- anywhere I could to live that “city girl” persona.  I spent holidays alone, navigated new cities by myself, and thought I would be happiest single.

I didn’t think I needed love, family, or support.  But that was what I need the most.

It may have taken me over a decade to realize I didn’t have anything to prove to other people- because I know in my heart who I am, what matters, and what I have to offer the world.

Thank you for three beautiful, turbulent, enlightening years, Boston. You helped me learn that I no longer have to run from those who love me, but most importantly, from myself. ❤️

Grateful for this next chapter.

Expressing Your Inner Goddess

We all have a Goddess inside of us.

We all have our own special inner powers, passions, and purposes to live out, but we have been conditioned to listen to our doubts, fears, and insecurities.

It’s time to let that Goddess shine.

I’m not suggesting you throw a Goddess party, wear a flower crown, or to book a retreat.  Those things are fun, but they don’t have anything to do with who you are- the strong, beautiful woman who has endless gifts to offer the world around them.

Divine feminine energy embraces intuition, inner wisdom, and the ability to both give and receive.  Strong and confident women are secure in who they are, lift others up, and know the importance of self-care.  They don’t have to overpower others to prove their point; they have a quiet power that shines through their everyday actions.

So, are you wondering how to start embracing your own Goddess within?

1. Leave your ego at the door

You don’t have anything to prove to anyone but yourself.

2. Open your heart

You may think it’s safer to keep it closed, but magical things happen when you’re open to receiving.

3. Love yourself without judgment

No one is perfect, and that is what makes us unique!

Embracing your inner Goddess is all about letting your authentic nature free and finally allowing your light to shine.

Somewhere along the road our spirit was crushed.  It may have been a parent’s divorce, childhood trauma, bullying, or a broken heart.  Maybe someone told us our dreams were foolish, or perhaps we were conditioned to think we weren’t good enough.

As adults, we can heal those wounds and go back to our original state of joy, dreams, and delight.  We can let go of what the world around us has said and start listening to ourselves.

From living beautifully every day to knowing the importance of setting boundaries in your life, you don’t need anything outside of yourself to embrace the Goddess within.

She knows the way- you just need to start listening to her.

For more Goddess goodness, please check out Emma Mildon’s “Evolution of a Goddess.” It’s such a great book, and I’m a total “Moon.”

Mindfulness in Everyday Life: Why I Meditate

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I’m a person who once desperately needed to incorporate mindfulness into her life.

It’s strange to look back on how I used to act, react, and think before I learned to sit still, breathe, and relax.  I learned the value in mediation, and the biggest value wasn’t the sitting meditation itself- it was the way I reacted to the world around me afterward.

Meditation is a practice, and not something that can be perfected overnight.

I hear a lot of people new to mindfulness and meditation tell me they can’t do it, or that they can’t shut off their brain.

Hint: this is why you do it!  This is why you practice!

We are the ones who complicate our lives.  We are the ones who try and predict tomorrow.  The present moment is all we have, and without mindfulness, we’re letting it slip out of our hands.

There are always things we don’t want to do in day to day life, from sitting in a meeting at work to being stuck on a crowded train.  Mindfulness makes these mundane or uncomfortable situations more bearable.  Why?  It’s because due to your practice, you’re learning to be comfortable sitting still within yourself!

Several years ago I used to be go-go-go- manic, even.  I didn’t understand the point of sitting still, and thought I was missing out on something if I wasn’t moving.  All of these thoughts were wrong; even when I was sitting and relaxed, I couldn’t fully enjoy the moment because I was constantly thinking about the past or the future.

I used to use other things to distract myself or calm down my brain, such as drinking, but today I can close my eyes, listen to the birds, and soak in the sun while embracing the now.  I don’t have to make up fantasies or disasters in my mind to fill the blank spaces.

I can just be and live in the flow.