For the past few weeks I have been torn between the life I used to live, contemplating what I want in the future, and accepting where I’m at now.
Until these recent moments, I’ve had one foot where I’m at in the moment, and the other foot somewhere in the unknown, wondering if it’s possible to recreate the “normalcy” I thought I once had. Truth be told, my life wasn’t that normal at all.
I pondered how lonely and broken I had been inside, how I pushed people away, and how I wore a mask to hide my pain. I remembered how I played many different characters, recreating myself with each move, job, relationship, or big city.
Today, I’m working on being true to myself.
I currently live with other women in recovery, and I’m no longer afraid to admit to the world that I, too, have struggled. Never in my life have I been so rigorously honest- and it is a whole new sense of freedom.
“To Thine Own Self Be True;” once you’re able to dig deep, accept your flaws, and learn to love the person you were made to be, there’s a whole new world that opens up for you.