Life certainly isn’t linear, is it?
Although I had a heartbreaking August, it doesn’t mean I lost any wisdom; instead, I actually gained a deeper understanding for what’s important in life and how to better connect with others. I also gained a deeper understanding of myself.
There is no way I could continue to grow if I didn’t get honest.
Over the past couple of years I may have written an array of life lessons, but I was too scared to be completely raw. I was afraid and timid to honestly share my real struggles. Perhaps I didn’t want family, friends, employers, colleagues, or perfect strangers to be uncomfortable or judge me on my inability to drink, or to admit I have battled depression, anxiety, and addiction my whole life. Be it dating, drinks, or even chocolate, one is too many and a thousand is never enough.
Though I’ve never ran the streets, my internal condition felt as helpless or desperate as those who had. I have encountered all walks of life these past seven years in and out of recovery, yet I’ve discovered the common denominator between us all:
We are egomaniacs with an inferiority complex.
The only solution for this void within is to learn to dig deep, look inside yourself, and learn acceptance for all life brings your way. Today, I am coming to finally accept myself for who I am, where I’ve been, and trust where I am lead.
No longer afraid, I’m proud to be who I am today- and I hope to help give courage to others along the way.