What a wonderful, healing, fun weekend it was with my friend Nicoline.
It’s amazing how spending some time with someone who has known you through your ups and downs can provide so much clarity.
Our time together was a good reminder of the layers I have been shedding over the years, especially as I get to know myself better, help others, and work toward my purpose. She gave me validation that I’m on the right path, for my path is much different than hers and many others in my life.
While most people get a job and work toward their other goals, my path is a little different; traditional “jobs” have never worked for me in my 11 years out of undergrad. Sure, I’ve tried- many times- but ultimately, my favorite work has been my writing, freelance projects, and fashion collaborations.
It’s time to do something different; insanity is doing the same thing over and over again while expecting a different result.
Over the past year, I’ve constantly been pondering: how can I turn all of my passions and talents into a job?
What can I do to use all of my experience- from recruiting to law firms to fashion blogging- to benefit others?
After painting for fun and writing about my own journey, it clicked.
I can create a brand of my own to empower, inspire and encourage.
As I pass street windows with knick-knacks and t-shirts, I always think, “wouldn’t it be great for this item to have more meaning? More love?” Not just a piece of fabric pushed out by a manufacturer somewhere in China, and not just a painting with some words on it.
Pieces that were created from the heart. Pieces that encourage, inspire, and empower; but also spread awareness and benefit the mental health community.
I think about Kate Spade and the brand she created for herself. Although she found massive success, she hid behind the bright colors and happy phrases. She didn’t want the world to no longer see her as the vibrant, playful, strong woman she was; so she never got the help she truly needed.
Success means nothing without a solid foundation. While we never know each other’s full story, my hope is to live in a world where we can finally be open about our struggles.
I am sick of fashion bloggers on Instagram with their carefully curated lives. I used to be guilty of this as well. How is it helping others when you’re constantly presenting an unattainable life? How does it benefit other women when they’re constantly thinking they’re not good enough?
I want to show that it is beautiful to live life in your natural state, and that you dont need an expensive bag, big house, or extravagant life to feel fulfilled. Beauty is all around us; we just need to switch our default setting from selfishness and FOMO to love and awareness.
Everyone has their own ways to cope with life, but I want to provide a way for others to know it’s safe to share your true feelings. It’s safe to be your authentic self. It’s also safe to remove the negative people, places, or things from your life- even when it’s hard to let go.
Working on my writing which goes hand-in-hand with Miss not only helps others, but helps me. It’s a daily reminder that recovery- whether from trauma or depression or an eating disorder- is possible for everyone. It’s a reminder that there is beauty in my story, and while my path has seemed flawed, life has dealt me the cards it has so I could be a messenger to help others.
The universe, God, or whatever higher power you choose to believe in will hand you lessons throughout your life until you pass the test. Challenges will continue to present themselves until you learn the lesson and move past the issues.
My intention is for others to hear my story and gain pieces of hope through my experiences before and after treatment, moving to Boston, and learning to love myself and my life with next to nothing, yet being grateful when you do have everything. To be happy living mindfully, minimally, and in style- whatever style that may be.
Happy July, my friends. It will be an amazing second half of 2018.