It’s the second half of 2018!
I don’t know how the year started out for you, but I have noticed a common theme with myself and those around me. 2018 has been a huge time of awakening, clarity, and epiphanies. It’s time to stop questioning ourselves, listening to others, and letting fear hold us back.
We are finally preparing to use our wings.
As I have broken through barriers that held me back in the past, recognized childhood pains, and broken old cycles, I’ve been left with a new sense of peace and freedom. 2017 was all about healing, self care, learning who I am without distraction (and curveballs to test me, of course), and rebuilding. As we entered 2018, I knew the pieces in my life I still needed to work on, but I was much closer to the next phase of my life- growing what I had been striving toward the previous year.
With a more solid foundation and steady footing, I’ve been making steps all year to strengthen my own wings and get ready to fly. Past pains have made me second guess myself in using my voice, sharing my art, and fearlessly pursuing my goals, but the first half of the year allowed me to strip away the layers preventing me from embodying the person I know I was meant to be.
It has been interesting to reflect on my growth with a friend who met me nearly four years ago, when I was going through a difficult time in New York City. My relationship was going south, I couldn’t find work, and was still mourning a breakup from earlier that year. I turned to distraction- an unhealthy boyfriend, too many nights out, and excessive drinking to mask the pain. Today, my life is completely different- and I’ve shown her that recovery and rebuilding is possible.
Ironically, that boyfriend passed away one year ago today from alcoholism- and while he never saw the light, I am so grateful I did.
It’s important for me to be in complete alignment. Up until this past week, I wasn’t- my stories changed slightly for different people in my “earthly life” (this blog doesn’t count); I didn’t feel comfortable telling people I was in recovery or that I, too, have been through challenges.
A glossy, pretty picture only shows one side of the story; it’s crucial for my health and happiness to be fearlessly honest with everyone around me- from bosses to people on the street. Today, I have nothing to hide. My pain has made me who I am- and it has made me stronger.
I will no longer sugarcoat my story to the people around me… for my life, and the lives of others, could depend on it.
Vulnerability truly is a gift, and I’m confident new opportunities will present themselves in the near future to use my talents and strength to inspire others. I just need to remember to stay in alignment and be true to my message.
Happy July. It’s time to fly! 🦋