Something has felt just a little “off” lately. Apparently this has been obvious to the world around me, too.
For example, earlier today I walked up to a friend and stopped. She must have noticed I was unlike my usually-energetic self, so she gave me a look of wonder. Looking up, I said, “I haven’t been feeling myself for the past couple of weeks.”
She looked at me and nodded. “You do seem a little bit off.”
I’ve been feeling this way for weeks now- but why?
There comes a point in everyone’s life when you recognize all you need to let go of in order to move on. You may struggle to say goodbye to people, habits, behaviors, or doubts. I know I have.
If I can talk the talk, why is it so hard to walk the walk?
I’ve thought I’ve let many things go, but apparently some of those things are still bubbling at the surface: Insecurities. Doubts. Fear. In turn, I also learned that my solar plexus chakra (also known as our “third chakra”) is extremely blocked and unbalanced.
I had never studied the importance of the solar plexus chakra before, but after doing so, it all made much more sense. Although I have always felt I had a strong intuition, big heart, and solid communication skills, I never had a strong sense of self, identity, or confidence. I moved city to city, and job to job, all to find a place where I fit, not knowing my true home was within.
After learning a little bit more, I learned that blockages in our third chakra can effect:
- Will, personal power
- Taking responsibility for one’s life, taking control
- Mental abilities, the intellect
- Forming personal opinions and beliefs
- Making decisions, setting the direction
- Clarity of judgments
- Personal identity, personality
- Self-assurance, confidence
All of these attributes are obviously important to any human being, but I have found that these can also be challenges for many. Without a strong sense of self, of course people flounder. We change relationships, professions, neighborhoods, and even pick up bad habits, such as excessive shopping, addictions, or gambling.
Sometimes we just need to take it easy and give ourselves a hug… and a mental break.
After writing a blog post yesterday morning and relaxing in the park, I watched a June energy update in hope of finding some sort of help or answer to my “off-ness.” One of the YouTubers I love watching is Lee Harris, who gave some helpful insights for the June energy, and the challenges we faced in May:
MAY WAS AN INTENSE MONTH.
It brought with it a lot of change, a SHIFT IN OUR IDENTITIES and also new levels of CLARITY around any aspects that had been unclear or muddy in your life. Your mind may suddenly have become clear about these areas and allowed you to make changes in patterns of behaviour, relationships or careers. The changes may have been obvious – things that weren’t working and for many, the element of surprise would have accompanied this. What this now ALLOWS you to do is make room on the inside to adjust and calibrate, before taking your next actions or welcoming the next level of energy into your life.
There are two ways we create change on the planet; we try something out externally and it changes who we are internally as a response; or equally, we can sit with ourselves and go within for a while and meditate on who we are and what we want from life. Then after this period of INNER SHIFT, different and new things start to manifest in our outer lives.
Confidence is the next big factor of my life I need to work on; being confident in doing my best. Confident in my friendships. Confident in my work. Being confident in my identity.
I have spent so many years concerned about what my family, friends, or complete strangers have thought of me. Maybe that is my next step: becoming truly happy no matter what is going on on the outside. Don’t get me wrong; I’ve taken a lot of steps. However, there is always work to be done.
So far, I’m off to a good start- over the past couple of days I’ve been busy at the gym, got a new haircut, and have learned to slow down… a little, anyway. As we move through June, I am optimistic that each day I’ll become a little more grounded, a little more sure of myself, and a little more in-tune with my third chakra; because if I’ve learned one thing by now, it’s “wherever you go, there you are.”
If you still have questions about the June energy, you can check out the rest of Lee’s energy report here.