Lately I have been feeling a lot of deja vu. Perhaps it’s the spring season, or the shifts of energy… but somehow, I keep getting the same feelings of hope and optimism that I had four years ago before moving to New York.
This also brings a bit of uncertainty; am I preparing for a change? Is something big on the horizon? Or, maybe, this change is on the inside.
It’s hard to say, but I’ll try not to overthink it and just enjoy each day.
After living in Boston for a year and a half now, I’ve reflected a lot on my experiences and how I’ve healed from the life I was living before moving here. I’ve learned the power of vulnerability, and that the right people come into your life at the right time. I’ve learned that curveballs provide great lessons, and that sometimes you have to take a step backwards to take two steps forward.
As I have cut baggage from my life- old patterns, behaviors, and thoughts, I also decided it was time to cut one more thing- my hair.
It seemed symbolic for the time, because it was four years ago this month when I cut my hair before, too. Full of excitement for the future, I opted for a new blonde bob, packed my bags, and left for a new life in NYC. Well, this year isn’t quite the same, but I have the same fresh feeling as I did four years ago- but I won’t let my story end the same this time.
Yesterday I woke up, fixed my new hair-do, and headed to an energy healing- just in the nick of time. There’s a fun background on how this energy healing happened, too:
Last weekend I serendipitously passed a street sale in Arlington on my way to the library, which just happened to be closed because of Memorial Day. However, as I strolled through the sale, I found two 25 cent books for sale- both on meditation and energy. When I headed to the table to check out, one of the ladies told me about an energy healing raffle going on. I filled out a card, bought my books, and headed back home.
A couple of days later, I received an email saying I was the winner! What a surprise. They had availability for Saturday morning, so, as an appropriate way to start my month, I booked a 9am appointment.
This was my first time having energy work done, and it was a very comfortable and interesting experience. We discussed where I thought I held onto negative energy, and chatted about my lifestyle, stresses, and passions.
After the session was finished, she asked how I felt. It was hard to pin point at the time; I was extremely relaxed, fuzzy, and calm. She did tell me that I am holding an immense amount of energy in my stomach, which I have never heard before. It all makes sense, though- she described it as the “butterfly in your stomach” feeling. Oh, do I ever know that feeling all too well!
In addition to holding stress in my solar plexus chakra, she mentioned my need for grounding work. Although my upper chakras are active and well, I have a hard time grounding. This made a lot of sense, too.
After I left, I thought about ways I count ground, calm my brain, and redistribute my energy. Instead of being stuck in my head all of the time, holding energy in the wrong places, how can I rebalance? So, I decided to go to the park.
It was a beautiful, hot June afternoon- until the rain came. I felt the rain hit my skin, feeling refreshed and rejuvenated. I headed home and put on some comfy clothes, opened my laptop, and started the new season of Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt.
Sometimes we just need a day or two to calm our minds, sit in nature, and rest. Saturday provided that opportunity for me to just be, reflect, and look forward to whatever is next. I don’t have to know what today or tomorrow will bring, as long as I am grounded in the moment- with a fresh new haircut. 🌿