When in the world did I become a gym person?
Well, I suppose this is proof that you can “never say never!”
A few years ago I wrote a post for Broke Ass Stuart titled, “Going to the Gym is Awkward.” Although I still agree that the concept of working out in a public setting can be a little strange, my opinion has changed a bit- and that is all thanks to the gym I discovered… and the change in myself.
Instead of being a scene or a social media bragging point (is that what this is? I hope not 😜), the gym has become my safe haven. My place of stress relief. An outlet for me to release my energy. Unlike other gyms I have been to, this one is all women- and unlike some yoga studios or bro-show gyms I have been to, I am comfortable at this one.
Not only is this gym different, but I am, too. My willingness to focus on healthy stress-relieving activities has overridden my old habits of being destructive, anxious, or stir crazy. My mornings spent writing in bed with coffee now include leaving the house by 6AM to catch the bus for my workout. My evenings that were once filled with mindless dates, Netflix, or happy hours are now spent working on myself- and growing even more comfortable in my own skin.
I started a new job two months ago today, and it was finally time to fill my out-of-the-office time with something other than long walks, thrift shopping, episodes of Mrs. Maisel, and writing. It was time to work on myself- even more.
For me, the gym isn’t about losing weight or the physical- it is to connect the mind, body, and spirit. It’s not about goals, camaraderie, or teams- it’s about my own mental strength.
It’s about feeling stronger, more confident as a woman, and whole- on my own.
The past two years have been all about shedding bad habits, learning new skills, and becoming more mindful- so now felt like the perfect time to add an additional facet to my life.
Although I swore I would never be a gym person- let alone take a photo in the mirror at the gym- I feel it is finally authentic. It’s for me… and it feels good.
I wouldn’t expect any more gym selfies, but I will keep you posted on how the next few weeks go- and if the gym has helped me in staying more focused at work, calm during stress, and even more connected with my soul- and the people around me.