It’s funny how having faith in the unknown can be one of the most comforting feelings. Even though it’s hard to be in “limbo,” having endless possibilities is both exciting and encouraging.
“The benefit of having little clue as to what is happening in one’s life is the possibility that something amazing is right around the corner.”
My friend Ashley tweeted this quote a few years ago, which has become my go-to any time I feel discouraged. In the five years I’ve known Ashley, we’ve both moved states multiple times, switched cities, changed boyfriends, left jobs, started websites, and one of us was even on a TLC dating show.
Needless to say, both of us have had little clue as to what was going on in our lives.
I’ve written for Ashley’s website Kinda Kind for two years now, and I’m ever-so-grateful to her for providing a platform for me to segway into writing about mindfulness and self improvement. Two months before my first Kinda Kind post I accidentally deleted my fashion blog; even though I have no idea how it happened (not to mention my initial mini meltdown), it was a breath of fresh air. I was ready to get rid of my fashionista identity and wanted to start a writing career with substance.
It was also around that time in 2016 when I started to purge my possessions, focus on quality over quantity, and made meditation and mindfulness a top priority in my life. 2016 was an extremely rough year, but thanks to the struggles, I gained a whole new strength. I had no idea that my challenges would result in a life of mindfulness and minimalism, but I’m sure glad it did.
Back in 2016, Ashley left San Francisco to move back to Chicago, and I left New York City- the place I thought was my heart- that July. The year ended on a positive note with my move to Boston and a newfound optimism, faith, and zest for life. I just knew there was something wonderful out there for me- and even though I didn’t know what it was, I was confident I would find it.
I’ve had a lot of changes since moving to Boston. Over holiday break I started to re-think teaching, concerned about going a week without pay. Although I adored it (with the exception of the biting and hitting), it was barely enough to cover my rent. It’s a hard pill to swallow when you made 4X the money a decade ago, straight out of college. I considered a part time job, but I knew it would be too stressful for me to manage it all. So, with no idea what I would do, I continued to write, put in the legwork, and reach out to my connections.
I’m proud of myself for how I handled my “limbo” phase. Sure, I went hermit for a while and was a bit depressed, but I pulled myself out of it and re-gained my energy.
Once my energy was back it was time to start pounding the pavement. Last Monday I spotted a post on Facebook from one of my San Francisco friends, looking for someone to hire for a part-time role. It seemed perfect- an Austin-based fashion brand had a huge need for someone to help with messaging and customer communication. By Thursday, I had a company email address and got started on my first projects.
It gets better. The following day I met with a criminal defense law firm about a marketing and assistant role. Some of you may know this, but most of you probably don’t- prior to marketing, I worked at a San Francisco law firm and studied for the LSAT. On a warm spring day back in 2009 I walked over to the University of San Francisco to take the test- with absolutely no desire to actually go to law school. I’m not sure what happened in those six months, but I was certain law school wasn’t in the cards.
Although I decided I didn’t want to be an attorney, I’ve always loved law firms. I don’t know why- I think it partially has to do with the fact my father was a lawyer (I used to “help out” when I was a little tike), but also due the interesting nature of the cases.
Fast-forward to a week later, I officially have two jobs doing things I love, I’ll be working with great people, and will still have the time to write. I couldn’t have planned this out more perfectly on my own, which just goes to show that worrying is a waste of time and energy.
It’s amazing what the Universe delivers when you have faith. Ashley and I chatted about this the other day- now living in Los Angeles, she’s also looking for that “next step.” As she grows her brand I offered to help in whatever way I can. That said, I’m excited to share that I’ll be a regular contributor to Kinda Kind, focusing on self-improvement and relationships! I’ll be sure to share the launch of the new website sections when they’re live.
I’m grateful to have someone in my life like Ashley. She totally gets it when I share my life challenges- no judgement, no eye-rolls. Both Capricorns yet free spirits, we have a million ideas in our heads, but sometimes it’s difficult to prioritize. This is exactly why you just need to go with the flow of the Universe- one door may close, but there’s a shiny door waiting for you just down the road. Trust me.