It can be a lonely journey while you’re aligning with your true self. Letting outside influence has blocked me from truly following my heart, finishing projects, and doing more meaningful work. Doubts and fear have changed my path repeatedly over the past decade, but thanks the struggles, I now have strength to stand still. Just like the moth, we have to struggle to escape the cocoon- our old self- to become what we are meant to be.
Over the past year I’ve been shedding my old beliefs, behaviors, relationships, and limitations. It hasn’t been easy learning to act and view things differently than I have in the past. I used to be defensive and took everything personally; now I’m trying to avoid attaching these negative “stories” to meaningless events.
We are all going through our own struggles, but one thing I have learned: happy people aren’t mean. Love isn’t selfish. When we align ourselves with our true beliefs, heart, and soul, compatible people and opportunities begin to appear. I’ve experienced this many times throughout my life- the right people always come to me at the right time, the phone rings after I’ve been thinking about someone, or a job pops up out of the blue.
If you’ve been feeling confused about why you keep repeating the same patterns, it’s likely that you haven’t learned your lesson yet. Despite moving to a new city last year, I still held on tightly to resentiments and the people who hurt me in the past. Unknowingly, I let my old mistakes and pain limit me from reaching my potential.
No matter how difficult your path seems now, try not to give up. There have been many times this past year I have wanted to; I’m used to running away when life is hard. Just three months ago I felt absolutely helpless- I learned I needed to find a new apartment with two weeks notice and didn’t have work lined up. Figuring out how I could pull off finding and funding a new place to live seemed impossible. Not knowing what else to do, I nervously sat in the park day after day drinking coffee, making phone calls, applying to jobs, and listening to positive messages from thought leaders like Wayne Dyer. I can look back at those horribly uncomfortable days now and laugh, but back in August all I could manage to do in my spare time was pace the streets of Boston or sit by the ocean in between my legwork.
One day after writing and meditating at the beach, I was on my way to the library to do more work when the phone rang. I never answer my phone while on the train, but for some reason I did. It was a phone call about a work assignment for the following day. Just when I had exhausted all of my worrying and felt like giving up, I saw a little bit of light.
Ever since that day, I have kept following the light.
Life may not unfold exactly how you expect, but that’s what is so exciting. Living your authentic life for yourself- not for someone else- will lead you on the right path. Keep shining… life will get brighter. Enjoy the magic and surprises along the way!