There’s a fine line between having goals and going with the flow of the universe. I used to drive myself crazy worrying about the future, planning, and ultimately beating myself up if life didn’t go the way I “thought” it “should” go.
There was a long period of time where I ignored my intuition and stopped following my heart in order to fit in with the world around me. That only got me right back where I started: at the drawing board. Perhaps I am much more of a square peg in a round hole than I thought, because I can only fake who I am for a very short period of time before I find myself irritable and discontent.
Over the past year, I’ve taken baby steps to be honest with myself and others- even when it feels extremely uncomfortable.
It’s been ten years since I graduated from college, and over this past decade I’ve lived in a handful of cities and worked a variety of jobs. However, my heart has always guided me back to writing, creative endeavors, and entrepreneurial ventures. Of course, we all need to find ways to make money, but my calling was never to go to school to obtain a certain degree or license to perform specific job duties. I’ve always been a free spirit. My degree, entrepreneurship, has left my options extremely open, which has caused me to run in circles, wondering which option to choose.
All I truly want is help people, write, and bring good to the world.
Just the other day, someone asked me where I see myself in ten years. I answered as honestly as possible: “I see myself as a published author with a little house on the beach.”
Do I see myself climbing the corporate ladder? No, I never did. Do I have still have aspirations of being a fashion marketer in New York City, an attorney, or an editor for someone else’s publication? Not anymore.
I suppose what I’m trying to say is that if you keep doing the same thing over and over, you’ll keep getting the same results. It’s time for me to do something different. I am just not sure where to begin: so I’ll leave it to the universe.
I’m sure she has something even better in store for me than what I could ever imagine.