What do all of the above have in common? Low vibe energy.
I recently wrote about raising your vibration, which is ironic, as I fell into my own trap of negativity and low vibes these past two weeks. Instead of writing about it, I festered in my own self doubt and self criticism. Instead of living in the moment, I’ve been dwelling in the past and worrying about the future.
“Why even write? I don’t have anything worth talking about.”
That was my first problem! My own experiences, doubts about myself and life struggles could have actually benefitted others- yet I was too comfortable sitting in my own misery. Yikes.
I know not to make that mistake again. In order to grow, I must be candid and real. I need to honor my feelings, pat myself on the back and learn from these experiences.
I’ve held onto my past far too tightly and have reprimanded myself for my many cross country moves, my failed relationships and my job hopping. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I struggle with emotion regulation, whether it be receiving criticism or simply answering a question about my life, fearful that I’ll be judged.
It’s time to cut the cords.
In order to live happy, joyous, and free, I need to fully release and surrender. I must have faith in my future and forgive myself for the past. I need to learn from my experiences and use them as lessons.
I woke up this morning feeling light for the very first time in weeks. The birds were chirping and the sun was shining. Maybe, just maybe, I’m truly on the path of cutting the negative cords of my own self doubt, and ready for a future of self acceptance.