Nine Months

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It’s been nine months.

No, no; I didn’t conceive a baby… but in a way, I have been growing a brand new person: myself.   

It was nine months ago today when I got on a one-way flight and moved to Boston.  As I flew over the Massachusetts coastline, I was in awe of the beauty.  I was excited for the future.  I had few plans, but a lot of faith; faith that I am trying to restore today.

Nine months ago, I wasn’t scared; somehow I knew everything would fall into place.

Is everything settled yet?  No, but I’m getting there- one day at a time.  I’ve learned to build a foundation, step by step, to manifest a life I love.

It’s been a wild ride these past nine months.  I imagined that my life would be much different than it is by now… but that’s okay.  I’ve learned more about myself than I ever thought I would.  I’ve learned that I’m strong, resilient, and tougher than I think.  I’ve learned that I can stay calm during a state of uncertainty and crisis.  I’ve learned to stop doubting myself and to stop looking to the approval of others for my own happiness.

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Equipped with only a few hundred dollars, three packed bags and a pros and cons list, I blindly moved to a city I barely knew.  I followed signs and symbols to guide me here, as I had no idea where my life would take me last fall.  I had nothing to rely on but faith.

People often ask me what brought me to Boston.  It seems strange to answer, “a gut feeling,” but it’s true.  After meeting someone from Boston and continuously noticing Massachusetts-related signs, I knew that New England was where I needed to go.  The person I met from Boston advised me to write out a plan; so four notebook pages, a few journal entries and a long conversation with my mother later, I bought a plane ticket, packed my bags, and was on my way.

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Going with the flow of the universe seems to be a way of life for me.

I know it’s radical, but following my heart is the only way I know.  I take signs very seriously, as I know they’re messages from my higher power.

Something also told me to start this blog.  I can’t quite remember what it was, but six days into my new Boston life I felt compelled to share my stories.  After years of fashion blogging, running from city to city and job to job, I was exhausted.  While I’ll always love fashion and style, I learned the importance of being happy in the present moment, for what I have, and living mindfully- in style.  My days of “more” were long gone, and I decided to live a life of minimalism- and gratitude.

Over the past nine months I’ve learned the importance of having less logic and more wisdom.  I moved to Boston for myself- for a fresh start, a new perspective, and a clean slate.  I moved here for the versatility of both the city and nature; for the ocean, the rivers, the lakes.  I find my serenity in the shore, where I am able to build a foundation of spirituality and peace.

Wherever you go, there you are- and today I know that no matter what city I am in, whatever job I have, or whatever is going on outside, I am okay just as I am

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A Solid Foundation

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I didn’t understand the concept of “building a solid foundation” until recently. Perhaps I grew up thinking good things just happened, or that certain people were luckier than others.  I never considered building a foundation of faith, spirituality, and believing in myself.  

A real foundation has nothing to do with what is on the outside.

I’ve learned that everything in life will eventually crumble if you don’t have peace within yourself.  After a difficult couple of months, I’ve been relying on faith, positive thinking, and my own foundation of gratitude.  Nothing, or no one, can provide the happiness that I need within my own heart.

Money, people and situations come and go, but you will always have yourself.  Society tells us that we need the basic essentials to live a fulfilled life: a job, a home, a relationship, and material possessions.  Marketing messages flood our minds, leaving us feeling empty, incomplete and unsatisfied.  Television shows I used to enjoy, such as “House Hunters,” leave me feeling annoyed with the homebuyers.  “Can’t they just be grateful that they’re buying a home in the first place?”  I know this is silly, but as I reach deeper into my spiritual self, the outside world confuses me more and more, and the material things seem so meaningless.

Today, I am manifesting a life of stability, safety, and serenity.

Ten years ago I was in the suburbs of Detroit, engaged to be married and living in a beautiful colonial house.  Instead of fulfilling my dream to move to New York City that summer of 2007, I moved in with an older boyfriend and started a job as a recruiter in Southfield.  My life was seemingly “set.”  We spent weekends decorating, grocery shopping, cooking, BBQing, and spending long days on the lake.  Yes, we even had a 30 foot boat.

I was miserable.

Although I never got married, I did eventually move to New York (and have lived in six other states, too).  I’ve worked a variety of jobs, had many different relationships, owned a variety of things, and have been many places.  For ten years, I was on an endless search for my “foundation;” until now.  I thought I would suddenly “find” happiness; I didn’t know it was already there.

You need to build your foundation within your own soul.

I’ve talked about running before- running from myself, people, places, and things.  After a very difficult and unsteady summer, I promised myself one thing: to stand still.  To sit in my discomfort.

To honor my feelings and build a solid foundation within myself.

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A Day to Be Happy

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September is almost here, and I couldn’t be happier.  As I felt the crisp Autumn breeze against my skin this morning, I breathed in a sigh of relief after a turbulent summer.

August was probably my most difficult month since moving to Boston.  Over the past several weeks I experienced moves, deaths, job losses, personal problems, and fear of the unknown.  I festered in my own uncertainty and forgot something very important: to stay grateful.

However, despite the road bumps, anxiety and uncertainty, the good far outweighed the bad.  Everything I was nervous about ended up being just fine- if not better- in the end.  Each challenge was a step to strengthen my faith and to build a solid foundation for the next step in my life.

I need to remember to stop- and be happy.

You never know what will happen tomorrow, so why rob yourself of a moment of peace?  99% of the time the things we worry about never happen, and even the hardships in life end up working out in the end.  As I did my readings for the day, I came across this angel message, which was a comforting reminder:

Angel Message for August 30, 2017: Queen of Ariel

It’s a day to be happy! Focus on and look for everything that brings happiness. Archangel Ariel presents with a message, “you may see the truth all around you where others do not.” Use this message to inspire those around you who may be struggling with a situation. Express your knowing and bring comfort. Be sure to care not only for others but you as well! 

This message made me stop and think about how much my life has changed this past year.  I’ve been working on creating a solid foundation of spiritual stability, not material or financial success, which I have learned is crucial to keeping anything worth having in my life.  I used to expect everything in my life to fall into place overnight- where I’m living, working, and who I surround myself with.  These things take time!  The good news is, I have faced many challenging situations that have provided lessons for me to grow, strengthen my faith, and force me to focus on being present in the moment- and being happy with what I have right now.

Having faith was my saving grace these past few weeks, and I often had to go back and read my own words to bring my attention back to one of the most important aspects of life: gratitude.

Yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn’t here yet, so right now I’m going to stop, enjoy the sunshine, and be happy.

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