Happy Spring! As I say goodbye my first winter in New England, I have been thinking about the person I was before I came to Boston, the person I am becoming, and who I want to be. Like a butterfly, I have learned to spread my wings, mature and do things a little bit differently this time around. Despite challenges of the past and old pains, this time I feel I am a little bit stronger and more equipped to face the challenges of the future.
As a perfectionist, it can be daunting to reflect on the person you once were. In the past, I have tried to be everything to everyone, yet I wasn’t always true to myself. I have been plagued with anxiety, fearful that my peers, coworkers, or even perfect strangers would judge me. I have acted out due to fear and pushed good things away because I was scared of losing them. I used to constantly question whether I was good enough, funny enough, smart enough, or pretty enough- the list goes on.
What a waste of time.
Since moving here I have had the opportunity to start fresh and work on becoming the best person I can be. In the midst of self-discovery, endless self-help books and hours spent watching inspirational talks, I’m still stuck in the same place: my head.
Then, right when I needed it the most, someone special came into my life who has helped me put everything in perspective. She has helped me realize that I am not the only person who thinks too much, that I am not out of the ordinary, that I do have a lot to offer and that I am simply too hard on myself. While nobody is perfect, she said something to me that I need to remember:
“You’re Perfectly You.”
“That is all. Nobody is perfect, but you’re perfectly you. Whatever happens today does not define how tomorrow will go. Each day is its own entity.”
She has helped me realize that every day I have the choice to grow and try to be the best person I can be. The good news is, I don’t have to be perfect or have all of the answers today. Even if I am feeling sad, frustrated or spiritually disconnected, I can learn from those experiences and try and improve my tomorrow.
Today, I can be content with just being “Perfectly Me.”